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Everything is just so hard one me. :’( Im so sorry mum, Im sorry I scolded you but I think i have to make you realise. You have to trust dad. He never ever cheated you all his life, mum. Hes such a great man. Youre always the one in a bad mood when you get home. He keeps quiet. Hes so patient with you. You just need to appreciate him, mum. I feel so upset at home. I have feelings too. Everything is just falling apart for me now.
Im just trying to stay strong. Im not that kind of person who doesnt care about whats going on with my love ones alright? I do. Im never so ignorant or selfish. People are just getting so meaner, so selfish with their own thoughts. I just dont fit in.
I appreciate everything you did for me. My life is all worthwhile with you here. I never did think about all the bad moments we had. I’ll always remember the beautiful moments we had since the very beginning. I remember it all. Even the tiniest details. I love you very much,so much but I wont let you come back to me again in the future. Because im not someone you need in your life.
Forgive me because my love is never enough for you. But i know that ill just become so crazy without you here with me. I will move on not bothering you. My feelings dont change for someone I love most down the road. Not until i know youre falling for someone else.
I just need to write. Its just easier for me. Everything is really falling apart in my life. Too many people walking away, even my special someone. Im sorry that I keep holding you back. You just wanna move on so bad without me. I still couldnt understand why completely. I keep asking myself why? Am I so ugly? So unattractive already? I just know that im never good enough for you and I must let you go. But i just couldnt. I mean what I say. Every single word, that you really are a big part of me.
I guess I have to learn to let go. You know, its really painful to see someone you love most go. Yeah, nobody else is going to make me feel beautiful like you do, Warmest hugs and kisses, for always being there for me when im sad, when i feel like everything is falling apart, I just know that youre always here for me, cheer me up with seaweeds and sushi, even late night dinner at Mc donalds. When youre gone later, i just dont know who would come for me. I never did open up my heart for anyone else. Youre special to me. Always so beautiful in my eyes. Nothing changed. Its just you.
Love, I try to understand you the best I can. I always did love you with my all. I will always do. I always support you for every decisions and goals in life. Im always here for you to cheer you up but sometimes, Im just such a failure. I called you just to make sure that youre alright. I tried my best to cheer you up with my tiutie pie moments. I even sang to you tiutie song. I thought i could make you smile. I was wrong. You sound like as if youre just wasting your time talking to me. I teared after putting down the phone. You wanna know why? I just dont know what youve become into.
You’d rather lose me than your ego. Maybe I understand that im a nobody to you now. Im even crying while typing this. Ive been so patient. Very patient. I just always wanna make sure that youre smiling. I just wanna make sure that youre okay. Ill always check on you. I know that im being so annoying to you, but i promise you that ill be gone pretty soon. Will always pray for your happiness and health.
Please dont be so selfish and ignorant. I have feelings too. Its kills me alot deep down when you ignore me. I understand that you need to be alone. I too, understand that im a nobody and neither someone you need in your life. I just know that you wouldnt text me back. I know you so well. You’ll always wait for me to come to you most of the time. You’ll never come back to me though.
I really miss the old you whom i know, who is very sincere, so appreciative, your words are always so warm, very gentle and loving. Its okay if you dont appreciate my love because to you my love alone is never enough. A year down the road, I just want you to be that stranger whom i know very well whom i love still. Nothing did changed the way I see you through, neither the way about how I feel about you.
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Until you blog something that they don’t like.
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(Source: yanilavigne)
